Just came back from my colleague birthday celebration at Library-Mid Valley.
There are two of them drunk in this night, believe that they have much pressure hiding inside their deep heart.
'J' - She married, already have 4 children, but divorce few weeks ago. Believe that she was missing her children very much. She cried in my shoulder, i can feel her hurt, at the same time, I think of my mother. That time she came to court alone, how her feel? Why I only support my daddy? She is the one who born me, who take care of me, who walk with me in my life... I knew, I really hurt her that time, and I never hug her like I hugging 'J' now...
'L' - She haven't get marry, but she love her family and friends. She always takes care of others feeling, but she had ignored herself. This night, was her birthday, she keep saying very happy, but actually she was escape from reality. She keeps asking us: "How to disappear in this world? Why she was born in this world?" She keep blaming this world, keep blaming why she was a human being? 8 years before, I have suicidal behavior. That time, was a friend save me from traffic, he also save me from 30th floor. When I climbed up to 30th floor, I think of my mother, my words had hurt her although she was crying in front of me. Now, I'm still remembering that what she said: "Girl, don't hurt yourself, mom only have 1 daughter." I believed that every girl will touch when heard that words, but I'm not, I just shouted to her: "Please go away, do not disrupt me!" I really hate myself now, why i can hurt her with those words? She love me so much...
Tonight, their tears change my mind, I don't want my life suck with bad memories, and I want to live in happiness instead of sadness. I came out with these words:
Be brave to FACE your PROBLEMS
&
OVERCOME your FEAR
Don't disappointed those FRIENDS who really CARE of us
CHEERS! MY FrIeNdS
Live in HAPPINESS
instead of
SADNESS...
